Do you recognise this feeling? You have dreamt about this time for so long and you want to get it right. Perfect even?
This is me right now, this is how I’m feeling. I’m excited but panicking too. I’ve dreamt about launching myself as a professional artist for so long. And now the time has come, I’m all prepared to share my artwork, my babies, to bare my sole to the world through this blog. And I’m terrified.
What am I scared of?
I’m sure this feeling of inadequacy, of not being ‘good enough’ is one that every artist will recognise. Questions, constant questions are surging through my head: What if people don’t like what I create? What makes me think I can succeed as an artist without any art qualifications? What do I have to offer that other people would be interested in, let alone buy? I can’t write. I freeze.
And the bombardment of questions, of doubts, continue.
But I decide to plough on.
And I write my very first blog to begin my journey into the unknown.
I can do this……
I can break through the doubts and fears. After all what’s the worst that can happen? I will create my art, I will write about it and no one will read. That would be sad, painful even, but not life threatening.
So here I am, desperately wanting you to like what I have to offer.
Who am I? My son kindly describes me as a nutty professor type, he says I remind him of Belle’s father in Beauty and the Beast. I often live in a very weird but beautiful place that only exists in my head. Slowly but surely the characters from that place are coming to life in my hands.
They are fun, quirky and a bit odd. They are beautiful too.
As each one slowly emerges from bits of clay, wire and scraps of recycled materials that no one else wants or cares about but me, it’s a bit like greeting an old friend. They are so familiar to me and strangely new too. Little by little they appear into this world. One by one they arrive.
And they must be made. They demand to be created anew into this world. They call out, ‘me next, me next, please make me’. Creating them is as natural as breathing.
And so they slowly march into this world, lead by dragon Concordia with Minima, my first born, riding on her back.
Why are they here? What do they want?
They want to bring a little fun into this often serious world. They want to encourage us to live more harmoniously with each other and with this truly magical world that we are lucky enough to have been born into.
This blog is about them, not me. These are their messages, their reasons for being.
Will you join them?
Will you listen to their stories?
Will you help them to live amongst us?
Will you join me to read more about my journey of discovery in Concordia’s World?
So here I am on the other side of my first ever blog. I’ve survived. I feel so much better for simply having ‘gone for it’.
Was it worth it? – you tell me?
Do let me know what you think and what you’d like to know about Concordia’s World?